Dear Ira , Rudra and Kapil,
Today I let go of every relation with you all. I give up today to try to have a happy family with you. I am tired to keep hope alive for a happy family with a loving husband and 2 sweet kids.
I want to let go of dream to sit in our garden watching Ira and Rudra play , while I and Kapil sit and have tea.
I let go it all.
While none of you may believe , I really had put lot of effort to see this dream come true . But some dreams are meant to be just dreams .
I free my Heart from all Hope and Hurt .
I let go all , I have nothing more to loose today .
I am sad but relieved that I no longer will feel any pain and no hurt.
All my life I was attached to you 2 little kids , imagined in my life. And then Kapil came and it was a happy family of 4.
I always clinged on to that dream of happy family inspite of all troubles.
This is the only thing I was attached to in my life .
Today I let go of it too !!
I know I cannot be a better wife and I don't think I can be a good Mother.
Today I am with nothing in my life but I feel lighter too .
No strings attached to anyone . It does hurt to break these strings , but sometimes we have to stop getting ourself hurt everyday.
Good bye loved ones , I set you and myself free from this bond.
may you find a bette home in your life . I was probably not good enough for anyone of you.
This diary ends here !!!